Season 4

Episode 13

 

THE “I” IN TEAM:  Give & Take

By Spring Summers – 14-Jun-03

 

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There is something funky going on in this episode.  Much as in The Zeppo, we Viewers are deliberately being drawn into active participation.  Notice how the episode is layered, i.e., how often we watch others watching others.  Notice particularly how often we watch, on our TVs, a character watching others on her TV.  E.g., Maggie Walsh voyeuristically watches Buffy & Riley have sex in Riley’s room.  She seems like a very disturbed person, doesn’t she?  Of course, we’ve just been watching the intimate details ourselves.  But unlike Maggie, we aren’t watching Sarah & Marc in an actual intimate moment, without their knowledge or consent.  So it’s the same, but it’s also significantly different – right? 

 

This sort of reality-mingling will cause academic types to write volumes about the transgressive nature of the pop-culture narrative, which manages to resonate deeply within our unknowable, individual, yet often dissonant and coupled selves, which reflects itself as continuously as a fun-house mirror, bouncing light to illuminate the fractures that allow the telltale, invasive seepage, as if through the cracked glass surface of the television itself.  But what did I just say?  I have no clue.  So let’s try again:  We’re being reminded of some simple facts.  It’s not just Walsh who is being emotionally affected by watching Buffy and Riley, or only Buffy who is being entranced by watching Riley choose his lunch.  It’s us.  We’re being poked and prodded by Joss Whedon and Company.  They’ve reached out and touched someone:  YOU.  US.  We’re letting the writers and cast and crew into our living rooms.  We’re trusting them, we’re buying their wares, and feeling fairly confident we won’t be sorry we took a chance.  (Giles, to Xander, upon trying one of the Boost Bars Xander is selling:  “Please leave my home now.”)

 

We’re Team-Viewers.  So . . . OK,Team!!  Get your 3D glasses on, and let’s show Joss that S’cubies know how to watch Buffy The Vampire Slayer: 

 

This episode opens with Xander, Anya & Willow playing poker.  The scene sets us up nicely for what’s to come:

 

When we open ourselves up, when we offer ourselves up, we take a chance.  When we allow ourselves to enter the lives of others, when we accept others, we take a similar chance.  We risk pain, in hope of joy.  In this episode, various characters take bold or baby steps toward forming or maintaining the ties that bind. 

 

Xander and his Boost Bars provide a literal representation of a just-business exchange between people, and Buffy & Riley’s first sexual encounter provides a literal representation of a wholly personal exchange.  But much more interesting are the exchanges that are not so clear-cut.  Nothing can make us feel more vulnerable than allowing ourselves to trust and connect to others.  Let’s take a look at how our various characters handle the challenge of dealing with the possibility of intimacy present in any personal exchange:

 

BUFFY, MAGGIE, AND THE INTITIATIVE 

 

Buffy is first seen fighting The Initiative’s commandos, in what turns out to be a deliberate test of her strength and resourcefulness.  Buffy does an impressive job, but only Graham Miller, who is the least invested in his personal relationship with Riley, seems comfortable with Buffy’s resounding victory.  “Awesome, Buffy,” he says to her.  In contrast, Maggie Walsh seems to be fuming under her restrained words of praise, and Forrest Gates’ body language is openly resentful. 

 

Forrest is Riley’s best friend.  He resents Buffy’s intrusion into Riley’s life, and senses that she might draw Riley away from both him and The Initiative.  There’s an interesting conversation between Graham and Forrest, when Forrest is angry about being given his own patrol team, while Buffy has taken his spot as second-in-command on Riley’s team.

Graham:  “Maybe he just wanted to give you a chance to get out from under his shadow.”

Forrest:  “Hey, I’m not under anybody’s shadow.”

 

True.  With a name like Forrest Gates, I believe he IS Riley’s shadow, his dark side (we’ll see more on that in future episodes).  He needs to be near Riley and he is feeling very threatened by Buffy’s light. 

 

In an episode where the word “threat” is used many times, we find that Walsh is also feeling threatened by Buffy.  Buffy’s curiosity and knowledge give Walsh good reason to believe she may be a threat to her pet project, Adam.  But there is more to it than that.  Walsh seems to have a rather too personal, and somewhat twisted, interest in her “boys,” especially Riley.  When talking to her colleague, Dr Angleman, she switches from calling him “Riley,” to calling him “Agent Finn,” obviously trying to hide her strong personal feelings for Riley.

 

We see that she has monitors hooked up to cameras in Riley, Forrest, and Graham’s bedrooms.  And it is certainly no coincidence that Buffy’s sexual encounter with Riley directly precedes Walsh’s conviction that Buffy must die!  Though I don’t believe that Walsh has a conscious sexual interest in Riley, or any intent to act on that interest, she considers Riley to be hers, body, mind and soul – she owns him, and that’s all there is to it.  Buffy is a threat.  And unlike Forrest, Walsh has both the inclination and the power to try to do something about it.

 

For her part, Buffy seems, on the surface, to be very anxious to join up and be accepted.  She is plainly very proud of her performance in the field test, but she holds back with Walsh, saying she was just lucky.  But she admits to Riley later that she was “being modest with the whole lucky thing.” 

 

Later, as Buffy tours The Initiative’s underground facility, she is mightily impressed with it size and complexity:

 

Buffy:  “You said it was big.  You told me, but you never said it was huge!”

Riley:  “I don’t like to brag.”

(FLASHBACK!!  School Hard, Spike to the Annoying One:  “I love to brag!!”)

 

So we get another image of withholding, with a claim of modesty.  And later, Buffy deliberately lies about her knowledge of The Initiative’s behavior modification efforts.  She makes up a story about seeing examples on The Discovery Channel, rather than give away the whereabouts of that notorious escapee, Hostile 17. 

 

Buffy is getting sucked into The Initiative due to her desire to be with normal-guy Riley, her admiration for Professor Walsh, her desire to be less alone in her mission, and her attraction to the technical expertise and back-up The Initiative can offer.  In typical teen-Buffy fashion, she’s willing to dive in with her eyes closed and take a risk, because she WANTS this to work out so badly.  But the fact that she is protecting both herself and Spike strongly suggests her trust in Walsh & Co – and by association, in Riley - is less than total.  Buffy is growing up, and she is no longer as “see-no-evil” in her approach as she once was.  Underneath it all, she is already far more suspicious than she is admitting to herself.

 

The entire tour scene – with Riley proudly guiding Buffy around while Buffy tries her best to say the right things to Walsh – is very reminiscent of any typical TV “boy brings his new girlfriend home to meet the family” scene.  The “outsider trying to gain acceptance into the family” image is enforced later when Riley refers to Walsh as “mother,” and Walsh calls Adam her “baby.” 

 

Families are hard to leave, and hard to enter.  Buffy’s partial initial acceptance into, and acceptance of, The Initiative, is represented by the items she receives from Walsh – a security card, and a beeper.  She isn’t, however, allowed to touch the $20,000 comm-cam.  When she worries that Walsh doesn’t like her, she says to Riley:  “Maybe I should get her a present or something?”  Depending on its perceived value, the offer and the acceptance of a gift signals an increase in the intimacy of that relationship – it indicates some degree of acceptance not just of the gift, but of the gift-giver herself.  Even the most selflessly offered, no-strings-attached gift creates a connection between giver and recipient, once it is accepted.

 

SPIKE, GILES, AND THE SCOOBIES

 

So what’s up with Spike?  After being surprisingly kind and solicitous to Giles during the Fyral demon incident, Spike opens their next encounter with an immediate series of jabs:

 

Spike:  “Hey, wipe your feet when enter a person’s home!”

Giles:  “Oh yes.  Careless of me.  Tracking mud all over your . . . mud.”

Spike:  “I admit, it’s a bit of a fixer-upper.  Needs a woman’s touch.  Care to have a crack at it?”

 

Giles tries to thank him for his help, but Spike tells him to “stuff the gratitude”; Giles owes him money.  Giles hands over the cash, and Spike insists on counting it – no trust involved, see?  This is Spike, overcompensating; this is Spike, feeling threatened by the extent to which he became friendly with Giles the evening before.  This is Spike, making it very, very, very clear that the help was not a gift - it was just business, it didn’t mean anything.  And Giles better not think, even for a moment, that it does. 

 

But it’s too late.  Spike is right to worry that Giles has both noticed his soft side, and has been thinking about it:

 

Giles (hesitantly):  “Uhm, thinking about your affliction and your newfound discovery that you can fight only demons . . . has it occurred to you that there might be a higher purpose?”

Spike:  “Ugh!  You made me lose count!  (turns to face him) What are you still doing here?”

 

Strange.  Giles’ words have made Spike lose count and he says so, but then he tries to behave as if he didn’t even hear them, and was barely aware Giles was still around.  This is Spike, newly chipped and scared.  This is Spike recently rejected by Dru and even by Harmony.  After invoking many images of family (teen-witch Willow, Xander cutting a new tooth), he tells Giles:  “The honeymoon is over.”  This is Spike, afraid of intimacy of any sort. 

 

Giles gives him a look that manages to convey both disgust and disappointment, and leaves.

 

When we next see Spike, the commandos have shot him, and he doesn’t know with what.  But it hurts, and it is in his back, where he can’t reach it.  Despite his earlier show of contempt and indifference, when things get desperate, he runs straight to Giles and The Scoobies.  The truth is, they’re the closest thing to a family he’s got.  He trusts them and he needs them.  But when he bursts into Giles’ apartment, the posturing that goes on before help will be offered or accepted is quite telling – both parties are making sure that the terms are clear.  This is not gift; it’s strictly business:

 

Giles:  “Why should I help you?”

Spike:  “Because you do that.  You’re the goody-good guys.  You’re the bloody freakin’ cavalry.”

 

So at first, Spike suggests that they should do it because it’s their job – nothing personal, they’d do it for anyone.  But that’s not really solid enough to make everyone comfortable.  A bit more is needed:

 

Giles:  “No, you can come up with a better answer than that.  Why should I help you?”

Spike:  “Oh!  Because I helped you!  When you turned into that Fyarl demon, I helped you, didn’t I?”
Giles:  “And that was out of the evilness of your heart?”

Spike:  “Oh hell, no.  I made you pay me.  (Spike realizes what Giles is after, and returns the cash Giles gave him earlier.)  You right bastard.  That’s all that’s left.  I spent it the rest on blood and smokes, which I’ll never see again.”

 

So, Giles makes Spike pay him.  Now, everyone can relax and ignore all the scary emotional complications inherent in the giving and receiving of help - and proceed with the helping.

 

But despite the business-transaction set-up, Giles’ operation on Spike is deliberately contrasted with Dr Angleman’s operations on the HST’s, and it doesn’t look so impersonal after all.  Underneath the snarking, Giles is trying to be careful, and though he casts it in terms of something he himself needs, he cares enough to ask Anya to get Spike some cognac to help anesthetize him.  And Spike, exhibiting the trust and comfort he’s been so loathe to openly acknowledge, allows himself to become nearly unconscious in the presence of Giles and the Scoobies.  We just left Angleman’s cold and sterile operating room, where a demon has been killed and its arm harvested for use on Adam.  The scene in Giles living room is looking very homey and family-like indeed.

 

And when Giles notices the illumination coming from the Spike’s wound, and Xander identifies it as a homing beacon, Giles says:  “It’s in deep, and I’m no surgeon.”  So take a look at this snapshot, just for the fun of it:  Giles, trying to locate a tiny flickering light buried deep within Spike, and despairing of ever being able to do so.  Hmmmm.

 

WILLOW AND TARA

 

Since they met in Hush, Willow and Tara have been spending more and more time together.  Tara offers her a gift – a doll’s eye crystal.  Willow refuses it, though she has just said she’s always wanted one.  She’s not rejecting the crystal, she’s rejecting what it represents – a willingness to accept an increase in intimacy in their relationship.  We have images of family again, adding value and significance to the offer:

 

Tara:  “It was my grandma’s.  I think.  I found it a long time ago in my attic.  I want you to have it.”

Willow:  “Oh no, Tara.  That’s really sweet.  I can’t.  It’s like a family heirloom.  I just wouldn’t feel comfortable.”

 

Tara seems hurt by the rejection, and even more hurt when Willow tells her that she can’t visit with her that evening, because she plans to be with other friends - with whom Tara “wouldn’t fit in.”  In Season 4, as we watch the end of high school, and the advent of adulthood, make changes to the tight-knit, “just us” dynamic between Giles, Buffy & The Scoobies, we see Willow making a last ditch attempt to hang on to her childhood family.

 

But Buffy arrives late for the just-Scoobies get-together at The Bronze, and when she does arrive, she brings Riley and his commando buddies with her, saying, in another example of give-and-take obligations:  “Riley and the guys were throwing a little impromptu celebration in my honor and made it, like, impossible not to invite them.”

 

Instead of increasing closeness, the encounter at The Bronze deepens the chasm forming between Buffy and Willow.  Not only does Buffy exhibit little interest in the event, but Willow lies to Buffy when she says that she could have brought someone else to The Bronze also, but claims she is speaking hypothetically – there isn’t any REAL someone.

 

Willow ends up visiting Tara after all – in fact, when we see her return to her room the next morning, we realize she has spent the night at Tara’s.  And look!  She has the doll’s eye crystal.  Hmmm.

 

So – through the medium of exchange and communication –or lack thereof – alliances are being strengthened and softened, formed and broken.  (Notice all the images of people not listening to each other, and of garbled communication).  And Buffy’s connection to The Initiative is over almost before it’s begun.  Maggie Walsh, determined to eliminate the threat Buffy represents, arranges for her to be killed in a fight against two demons.  Buffy manages to avoid death, and when Maggie’s duplicity is discovered, all trust is shattered.  And with the loss of trust, everything is lost.  There can be no real intimacy, no real family, without trust.  Maggie loses not just Buffy, but “her son”, Riley, as well.  Soon thereafter, her “other son,” Adam, betrays her by skewering her to death.  This is some dysfunctional family.

 

In the meantime, Buffy has made a beeline straight to her real family, to the folks she can really trust, with whom she doesn’t have to be modest (notice how Buffy loves to brag in this ep).  She walks in on Giles telling Spike:  “Spike – Lord knows why I’m telling you this, it’s for your own good.  As long as the Initiative is in operation it’s not safe for you here.”  And Buffy says:  “It’s not safe for any of us.”  She’s one of them, not a member of The Initiative.  Even new and barely improved Spike is more of a colleague than Maggie and the commandos.

 

Buffy had been letting her desire to get close to Riley, and her trust in him, blind her to any problems with The Initiative.  She had sex with him, and now – oh no, not this again – suddenly she has to begin wondering if he’s a good guy after all.  Because in this episode, Buffy has noticed, and commented, and been disturbed, by soldier-boy Riley’s literally unquestioning loyalty to The Initiative, which contrasts very sharply with halter-clad Buffy’s style of constant questioning. 

 

We get a message that was only hinted at previously – The Initiative has a “higher purpose” also - only it’s not so high at all.  Their questionable ethics are demonstrated again in their unwillingness to recognize the sentience of the beings they kill and mutilate.  This provides another sharp contrast with Buffy’s methods, which include trying to understand the motivation of her foes.  But what we learn in this episode is that ethics have absolutely nothing to do with it.  The Initiative’s leaders aren’t above plotting Buffy’s death, and they are literally creating monsters.  Earlier, Willow tells Buffy:

 

Willow:  “What’s their ultimate agenda?  I mean, OK, yeah, they neuter vampires and demons.  But then what?  Are they gonna reintegrate them into society?  Get them jobs as bagboys at WalMart?”

 

Two scenes later, we’re watching Spike stroll home with – whaddaya know - a grocery bag.  For the first time in over a century no doubt, Spike has legitimately earned a few dollars, and he has purchased, rather than pinched, what he needs.  Seems chipped-Spike is trying to reintegrate himself into society, even if he isn’t taking a job a WalMart.  Foreshadowing the very rough road to redemption ahead for our favorite mass murderer, Spike’s novice assimilation effort gains him nothing – he’s a demon, he’s being viewed and hunted as an animal, and his healthily-gotten gain does not stand.  The Initiative’s assault leaves Spike without his blood, his smokes, or ultimately, any of his hard-earned cash.  And the answer to Willow’s question, we see, is a resounding NO.  The Initiative isn’t interested in rehabilitation.

 

And in Spike’s case, the big job rehabilitation will represent is seen in this exchange:

 

Giles:  “It will be dark soon.  I think it will be wise for you to leave Sunnydale.”

Spike:  “I’m not going anywhere.  Not until those bastards undo whatever they did to me.  Put me back the way I was.”

Xander (sarcastic):  “Sure.  Just explain to the nice scientist guys that you really miss killing and torturing innocent people.”

Spike (asking with sincere interest):  “Do you think that will work?”

 

Oh clueless, clueless Spike.  That tiny light really is buried way down deep.

 

We see something else here – the way our own self-image and limited vision, and the opinions and related actions of outsiders, interfere with our journey toward becoming who we are meant to be.  Spike’s crimes are egregious and many; we can’t expect he’ll have a simple journey toward redemption, or that others will be anything other than closed and suspicious of his actions and motives – which are so varied, and so often accompanied by mixed messages, that he confuses even himself.  But Spike is simply an extreme example of what we see the other characters facing, and of what we all face, trying to realize our potential, find ourselves, and emerge from our cocoons:  the interference, even oppression - of others and of our own fears. 

 

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