Season 5

Episode 7

 

FOOL FOR LOVE:  Sympathy for The Devil

by Spring Summers – 18-Apr-04

 

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In a Season that focuses on identity, this particular episode features the piece-by-piece manufacture of our very own Spike.  He acquires all the trappings right in front of our eyes:  his name, his accent, his Slayer obsession, his scar, his reputation, his hair, his sneer, his coat.  Five, Six, Seven, Eight!  Who do we appreciate?  With that fascinating formation front-and-center, Fool For Love examines both the very illusory, and the very real, nature of the power of self-creation. 

 

Let’s start at the beginning, the very, very beginning:  Buffy is fighting a vampire who looks like a refugee from an Eighties Hair Band.  She is making jokes about his smell.  She is obviously looking forward to the sure-thing; he’s already dust beneath her feet.  Except that he’s not.  It seems our hygiene-challenged vampire has other ideas.

 

Lesson the first:  A Slayer must always reach for her weapon.

 

In a world full of impersonal forces, all happy to crush you and your best-laid plans at every turn, it’s important not to become complacent or arrogant on your way to your desired destination. 

 

SPIKE:  “The problem with you Summers, is you’ve gotten so good, you’re starting to think you’re immortal.”

 

You have to have that weapon at the ready.  Your enemies have already got theirs.  Emphasizing the role of the external in our self-construction are the many images of people whose lives are inalterably changed (or ended) by opportunistic forces beyond their control:

 

  • Buffy’s own weapon is turned against her.
  • The Chinese Slayer is on the verge of staking Spike when a chance explosion turns the tables.  She is killed, reaching for her weapon.
  • The New York Slayer has Spike at a disadvantage until the sudden darkness provided by a tunnel allows Spike to gain supremacy.
  • Joyce is going to the hospital for a CAT scan.  Her control over her fate is very limited.

 

Reach for your weapon, keep it by your side, stay ever-vigilant:

 

  • SPIKE (to Buffy):  “The second – the second that happens, I’ll slip in.”
  • HARMONY (to SPIKE about his shotgun):  “The second you even point that thing at her, you’re gonna be all ahhhh!!”

 

There’s always something, just waiting to zap you.  You can’t be always safe - the best you can be is always prepared.  Further underlining the random and uncontainable nature of our fates is the frequent use of sarcasm, outright lies, and false predictions – we hear them over and over, and we note how very little our own words can mean.  Here are a few examples among many:

 

·           Sarcasm:  RILEY:  “I like a girl who can play a few sets of tennis with a major stab wound.”  And ANGEL:  “Perhaps it’s my advancing years that make me so forgetful.”

·           Lies:  RILEY: “We’ll come back at daybreak when they’re asleep and we’re better armed.”  And SPIKE:  “I had to get myself a gang.”

·           False predictions:  BUFFY:  “It wouldn’t be you, Spike.  It would never be you.”  And JOYCE:  “I’m going to be fine.”

 

WILLIAM (about his poems):  “If they’re no good, they’re only words.  But the feeling behind them – I love you, Cecily.”

 

So what are we then, flames flickering helplessly in the storm?  Our words, our efforts, our dreams – are they meaningless, lost forever with each passing gale?  Are we defenseless, low hanging fruit?  Are we no different than those tiny Florida turtles, hapless, born just to die moments later, consumed on our way to the sea?  No.

 

Lesson the second:  Ask the right questions.

 

It isn’t just about the way external forces shape you.  You aren’t a candle in the wind:  The answers you receive are all about the questions you ask.  Listen to the dialogue in this episode, and take note of the constant use of questions, and how often people are “asking for it.”  (“Give it to me good, Buffy.”)  Everyone is asking questions, and the words “question” and “ask” are used repeatedly.  We watch people as powerless victims, but we also watch them determine their own fates by asking for what they receive.  And of all the moments that grab me in this episode, this is the one that grabs me by the throat:

 

SPIKE:  “ . . . since I agreed to your little proposition, we can do this my way.  Wings.”

BUFFY:  “What?”

SPIKE:  “Spicy buffalo wings.  Order me up a plate.  I’m feelin’ peckish.”

 

Rewind.  Watch again:

 

SPIKE: “ . . . since I agreed to your little proposition, we can do this my way.  Wings.”

 

Freeze it right there.  “Wings.” 

 

Spike & Buffy are in The Bronze, sitting – of course - by the stairs.  Bring me up, take me down.  Spike is, so very resolutely, asking Buffy for wings.  Wings.  Wings!  Of all things.  She’s in a bit too much pain to handle his request, at the moment.  But oh, Spike.  Don’t you dare give up on that girl.  She’ll get to feeling better, someday.  And you never know when a wish might come true:

 

RILEY:  “OK.  Just ditch the chips and watch my back.”

WILLOW:  “Done.”

Done!  With a very slight delay, but done.

 

SNOBBY PARTYGOER (about William’s poetry):  “I’d rather have a railroad spike through my head than listen to that awful stuff.”

Done!  Done, with a bit of a delay, I suspect, but still before he even has a chance to blither, “But I didn’t mean it literally!”

 

DRUSILLA:  “I see what you want.  Something glowing and glistening.  Something – effulgent.  Do you want it?

WILLIAM:  “Oh, yes!  God, yes.”

Done!  Done before he has a chance to think twice.

 

SPIKE (to Angel):  “You know what I prefer to being hunted?  Getting caught.”

Done!  Years later, but still done before he really knows what’s happening; done before he begins to understand where it will lead him.  Spike gets caught good and proper – trapped by The Initiative, enchanted by Buffy, housebroken by the other side.

 

SPIKE:  “Sooner or later, you’re gonna want it.  And the second – the second that happens, you know I’ll be there.  I’ll slip in.  Have myself a real good day.”

Done!  Yes, she’s gonna want it, and yes, he’ll slip right in.    

 

So, consciously or unconsciously, within this chaotic world, where our words can mean less than nothing, we see that they can also mean everything.  We are the primary sculptors of our own fates.  We can create the good man, or the vicious monster. 

 

We can’t always keep the wolves from entering, but what we do before their assault to prepare, what we do during their invasion to fight, and what we do afterward to recover, is still up to us.  In this episode we are looking at both Lesson 1 & Lesson 2:  We are looking at both the need for an ever-vigilant defense, and the need for a very precise offense. 

 

So – the experienced Spike is preaching truths to young Buffy and he seems to have built himself quite a strong and firm identity.  Becoming a vampire was a profound and powerful experience he tells Buffy.  He started making his own rules.  Yes, in the context of his demon-existence, he seems to have found himself; he has it all together.  But here’s the secret:  It is just a seeming.  Look at these images:

 

  • A needy William is devastated by Cecily.  “I love you, Cecily.”  He has tried to be something he’s not meant to be – a poet – for Cecily.  But she rejects him.
  • A boastful Spike lies to Buffy.  “What can I tell you baby?  I’ve always been bad.”  He tries to impress Buffy with lies.  But she rejects him.  It is only when he breaks down and manages to get in touch with his real self, at the end of this episode, that she lets him truly touch her.
  • A cocky Spike brags to Angel.  “Don’t be so glum, mate.  The way you tell it, one Slayer snuffs it, another one rises.” For all his snarking at Angel, Spike, like any rebellious son, wants Angel’s attention and approval.  He killed The Slayer in part to impress his grandsire.  But unbeknownst to Spike, Angel has a soul, and he’s not impressed – he’s sickened.  And he will leave Spike behind.  {“This rebellion’s starting to bore me.”)
  • A desperate Spike tries to hang on to Dru.  “I did it for you, pet!”  Spike tries to ignore and deny his feelings for Buffy in order to keep Dru by his side.  But she rejects him.
  • A tearful, angry Spike decides to kill Buffy.  “Beneath me.  I’ll put her six bloody feet beneath me.”  Buffy is the second woman in over hundred years to tell him, “You’re beneath me.”  And apparently, it is still too soon. 

 

And so we see the truth:  William hasn’t changed a bit, not really.  Spike is still as unformed and vulnerable to others as he was the day he died.  Stymied by that death, by his soulless and undead state, Spike has experienced no real emotional growth.  As the many images and references to hiding suggest, he’s only engaging in a vampire-related cover-up.  William, our good man, might have grown after his encounter with Cecily.  Despite his immature shyness and insecurities, and his childishly idealized view of himself and his world, he exhibits tremendous courage:  He is brave enough to be himself, to let himself feel love and pain, to speak the truth, and to grieve.  In his understanding that he is a “bad poet,” he also shows us an incipient ability to know and see himself clearly.  After the tears, after taking out his frustration on his poor belittled poem, William might have learned a painful lesson, and moved forward.  But he encountered Dru instead.

 

So for Spike, after all this time, the inks are still wet; his poem is still unfinished.  He has yet to find himself and establish himself; he has no firm or independent identity.  He is nothing, no one.  “You’re nothing to me William.”  He dances to the rhythms of others.  “The thing about the dance is, you never get to stop.”

 

Listen for the many mentions of the words “fault” and “blame,” along with the scenes of Spike (and others) being influenced by family and friends.  These images emphasize they way we can allow others to determine our actions and decisions, who we are and what we will be – and in turning over responsibility, we also turn over control.

 

But ultimately, that’s you, deciding to let someone else take over.  That’s you, telling Dru that you want it.  Look around you.  The person you are, the life you have built for yourself, is ultimately all about you.  Though battered and often twisted mightily by outside forces, you are always, at your core, a construct of your deepest desires:

 

SPIKE:  “Now you see, that’s the secret:  Not the punch you didn’t throw or the kicks you didn’t land.  She merely wanted it.”

 

Others can attempt to help or hinder you in the journey toward true self-discovery and establishment.  But always, you live your own vision of a perfect life, realized by your imperfect self, in an imperfect world.  That’s the secret:  Don’t look at who you are, what you are, and where you are, and cry about how far it is from what you really want.  Understand that, no matter how bizarre it might seem to you, the who, what, and where of your present condition is all about what you really want. 

 

Does Buffy want death?  In the subway car, Spike, while making his underground journey at breakneck speed, is ruthless, fearless, smart, strong and absolutely deadly.  Like Buffy, The Subway Slayer has ties to the world, and no doubt, a life-wish – i.e., a desire for the sort of expiration date you might find on a bag of Cheetos.  But also like Buffy, she’s The Slayer.  Death is her art; she makes it with her hands, day after day.  And after awhile, as it does for anyone in a life and death profession (“that’s what the police are for!”), the exposure to the dark and the ugly begins to take its toll:

 

SPIKE:  “Death is on your heels, baby, and sooner or later, it’s gonna catch you.  And part of you wants it.  Not only to stop the fear and uncertainty, but because you’re a little bit in love with it.”

 

Spike goes on to tell her that every Slayer has a death wish.  The look on Buffy’s face tells us that he has struck a nerve.  Death is Spike and Spike is Death and Sex is Spike and Spike is Sex and Death is so damned Sexy.  Buffy is just a little bit in love with it, and with him:

 

SPIKE:  “Come on.  I can feel it, Slayer.  You know you want to dance.”

BUFFY:  “Say it’s true.  Say I do want to.  It wouldn’t be you, Spike.  It would never be you.”

 

Unlike William with Dru’s offer, Buffy is attracted but she finds the strength to say no to Spike’s offer.  Like William, her mother is expecting her.  The next time we see Buffy, we learn she’s been helping mom with a grocery list.  And when Buffy notices Joyce packing an overnight bag, Joyce makes these remarks:

 

JOYCE:  Oh, I was hoping to put this off, but - you know the nothing that I’ve been dealing with the last couple of weeks?  It might not be nothing.”  (CECILY:  You’re nothing to me, William.”  BUFFY & CECILY, both:  “You’re beneath me.”)

 

JOYCE (later in the same conversation):  “It’s only one night.  And they say even if there is something, it’s still very early, if they didn’t see it before.  I’m going to be fine.”  (No.  That nothing is death, come to find you in your own backyard.  A small but deadly tumor is growing inside Joyce’s brain.)

 

And for Buffy & Spike, this is not “only one night,” it’s THE night.  It is THE night that changes everything.  The “nothing” Buffy’s been dealing with?  It might not be nothing.  A small bit of Spike is inside Buffy’s heart - she is just a little bit in love with him - and it is much too late in the day, for a reprieve.  It’s not nothing.  It’s life, it’s death, it’s love, it’s hate.  It’s light and it’s darkness.  It’s sex.  But it is not nothing.

 

Nothing.  It’s a word Spike has used to describe himself (in Lovers Walk:  “I’m nothing without her!”) and others have used it since, to describe him. 

 

“No one is narrating on an empty stomach, here,” says Spike to Buffy – right before he begins narrating on an empty stomach.

 

“I didn’t know she was seeing somebody,” says the Chaos Demon, to Spike, about Dru.  Of course, that’s the thing about Dru; that’s the thing that seduced William utterly:  She looked at him, and she saw somebody.

 

It’s what both human and vampire Spike want more than anything – to be seen, to receive external validation of the self, to establish an identity in such a way that his perfect inner vision of himself matches his outer manifestation in the world.  

 

WILLIAM (to Cecily):  “All I ask is that you see me . . .”

 

He struggles, as we all struggle, to make his words and actions match the feelings behind them – and vice-versa.  But despite the dramatic self-creation we witness, Spike’s continued and essential lack of his own independent identity is emphasized in the references to him as nothing, and the chasm between his view of himself, and the way others view him.  (CECILY:  “I do see you.  That’s the problem.”)

 

Who else is having a few confidence problems?  I’d say, Riley.  Riley seems in such desperate need of affirmation of his worth, so driven to prove himself that he makes the risky, melodramatic, and unnecessary move of stomping into a crypt full of vampires all alone, and blowing it up with a grenade.  Who’s the man?

 

Last episode we saw Riley hanging out at Willie’s bar, flirting with a vampire.  What’s good for the gander is good for the goose, I guess, because this week, it’s Buffy’s turn.  Buffy & Spike’s sizzling encounter at The Bronze is at the center of this episode, but they are satellited by two foursomes.  One is from long ago:  Angel, Spike, Darla, and Dru.  The other is present day:  Riley, Xander, Willow, and Anya.  The dynamics at play are very similar within these two groups, and I would suggest to you that Riley is the modern day Angel, while Xander and company are today’s Spike – right down to the chip(s).  Here is one example, among several, of the similarities involved:

 

  • RILEY:  “Guys, I’m thinking if we split up, we could cover more ground.  Tell you what.  I’ll take the cemeteries, you guys get The Bronze.

ANYA:  “Are we not being covert enough?”

 

  • ANGEL:  “You’ve got me and my women hiding in the luxury of a mine shaft, all because William The Bloody likes the attention.  This is not a reputation we need.

SPIKE:  “Oh, I’m sorry.  Did I sully our good name?  We’re vampires!”

 

Riley’s foolhardy attack on the vamp nest is very much like Angel’s pushed-to-the-limit attack on Spike.  Over one hundred years later, Riley is being catapulted past the point of reason by the very same, staggeringly cocky party: Spike.  You know, the guy Riley’s girl is out dancing with, tonight?  He doesn’t know where Buffy is, you say?  No, he doesn’t.  But he will, soon.  And we saw it in Dracula and we’ve seen it in every episode since.  Riley senses that Buffy’s passions are elsewhere.  How reassuring were her words to him, really, in Out of My Mind, about wanting someone with superpowers?  “If that’s what I wanted, I’d be dating Spike.”  Just what he needed to hear.  Not.

 

By trying to be what he believes Buffy wants him to be, instead of who he is, Riley is hurting himself and impeding his own journey toward self-fulfillment.

 

There are many references and images about the switching of roles, also emphasizing the way others influence our journey:

 

  • In the opening scene, Buffy goes from being the hunter, to being the hunted.
  • Xander wants to be like Riley:  “How come I’m not like that?  It’s just so cool.”
  • ANGEL (to Spike):  “And every time you do, we become the hunted.”
  • BUFFY (to Spike, about killing):  “You got off on it.”  SPIKE:  “Well, yeah.  I suppose you’re telling me you don’t?”
  • Buffy and Spike literally switch places as they talk to each other in the alley, each “taking the stage” to talk to the other.

 

Gender dynamics are definitely at play in this episode, as Riley overdoes it, Angel talks about “his women,’ while obviously uncomfortable with Darla’s disapproval, Willow assures Xander that he’s cool, and Spike can’t win with Cecily, Dru, Harmony, or Buffy.  But this is the Jossverse and the landscape is complicated.  It isn’t just about the way men try to impress women.  We see Spike trying to impress Angel, Xander wanting to be like Riley, Dawn wanting to patrol as her sister does, and Buffy worrying that Riley thinks she’s a wuss.  (NOTE:  The Dawn/Buffy scene is shot very much like the William/Cecily scene, as both Dawn - a “short, annoying man” - and William plead for a little recognition from the loved one they idealize).  

 

The Gendy-bendy King however, is, as always, Spike.  There are violent, tough guy images, and we watch Spike leaping over obstacles, boldly confronting the fearsome Angel, and forcefully taking Drusilla in his arms for sex.  His appearance is heavily masculine (dear God – those arms in the subway scene!).  But what else have we got?  Let’s see:  Make-up, jewelry, nail-polish, poems, extreme sensitivity, fighting with a woman and wearing her coat.  William ‘s bravery and potential to be a strong, multifaceted, complete individual – a good man – has been twisted into Spike’s ability to be a freewheeling, fearless, and very effective bad man (with great arms). 

 

Foreshadowing the Season 6 sex-capades is the sexual imagery that abounds in this episode, particularly between Buffy & Spike.  I get so lost in the metaphors, that when Spike tells Buffy he already has “his weapon,” I’m nearly expecting to see – uh – something other than a bumpy forehead.  So OK – I defer to my male readers – what am I learning here?  Is becoming a man a profound and powerful experience?  Getting laid makes you feel alive for the very first time, maybe?  A new strength coursing through you?  I don’t know, but I’m as fascinated as Buffy is by Spike’s shtick – not to mention his stick.  I can’t take my eyes off Spike:  He strokes that pool stick, coolly hitting balls into holes; He taunts Angel into shoving him to the ground, stick in hand; He gives Dru his finger to suck; He lights a matchstick; He grabs Buffy and she puts her hand on his pool stick;  He lies on the ground with the Subway Slayer and later Buffy, straddling him; He tells Buffy he’ll slip in;  He cocks a big ol’ shotgun, intending to take a shot at Buffy.  The Buffy & Spike chemistry in this episode is so very hot (hot, hot, hot) that how anyone could doubt where this relationship is going is beyond me.

 

Buffy doesn’t even try to deny the attraction – by admitting that she wants to dance, she acknowledges that what Spike is feeling is real.  But in rejecting him she is acknowledging another reality:  Spike is an absolutely vicious, remorseless murderer who has just made it clear he’d love to make her his next victim at first opportunity.  This is not exactly flowers and candy and loving endearments, now is it?  Buffy declines.

 

In Season 6, much more vulnerable and alone, Buffy will give in to the powerful attraction she feels for Spike.  It will be part of a painful growing and learning process for Buffy, and her Spike-assisted Season 6 journey is foreshadowed in Giles’ inability to help Buffy in this episode.  They love one another, but he is a parental figure, and he is becoming less and less central in her life.  Note how she leaves him to seek out Spike – i.e., someone who can help.

 

And Spike can help.  What happens with Angel in the 1800s foreshadows Spike’s upcoming role as the one who will take Buffy into the light:

 

SPIKE (to Angel):  “I figure there’s a new Chosen One getting all chosen as we speak.  I tell you what.  When and if this new bird shows up, I’ll give you first crack at her.”

 

And if I may be so crude, when Spike and Angel next encounter a Slayer together, Angel does get “first crack” at her.  But there’s something else being implied in Spike’s wording here – that Angel won’t finish the job.  Spike will.  And so he does.

 

As he does briefly with Angel in the mine-shaft, Spike will help Buffy find the courage to face and acknowledge (and therefore come to take control) of the animal inside:

 

SPIKE (to Angel):  “Don’t you ever get tired of fights you know you’re gonna win?”

ANGEL:  “No.  A real kill, a good kill, it takes pure artistry.  Without that, we’re just animals.”

 

Buffy and Angel’s attraction to Spike, their ultimate inability to resist him, belies the existence of the animal-like, all fists-and-fangs selves they attempt to suppress.  Like Angel, Buffy is attempting to script her fights, to get a blow-by-blow description she can map out and memorize.  But the animal inside exists, and it cannot and should not be suppressed.  It must be acknowledged, accepted, and integrated into the self.  Buffy and Angel are therefore attracted to Spike despite their frilly cuffs-and-collars selves, because he brings out a part of themselves that they secretly love.  They lunge at Spike, they want Spike – precisely because they are used to winning – they always win - but with Spike, they cannot win. 

 

Spike wins if they refuse to fight him, he wins if he bests them in a fight, and he wins if they best him.  He wins if they fight him at all.  It’s infuriating, it’s appalling - and it’s sexy as hell.  Note that Buffy & Spike won’t consummate their relationship until the chip no longer prevents him from winning a fight, until he taunts her, exactly as he has taunted Angel, into pinning him to the ground, and into giving his smirky son-of-a-bitch self exactly what he wants.  As long as they are attempting to deny and reject the animal-like part of themselves, the Spike within – they can never win against him.  Never.  It’s not about how he wins; it’s about how they lose.  You can exert no control over what you deny.

 

But it isn’t only Buffy’s long night’s journey into day that is foreshadowed in the episode:  It’s is also Spike’s.  In Out of My Mind, we saw many images suggesting that Buffy was a God-like figure to Spike, a Savior.  And that is reinforced in this episode.  Not only does Spike ask Buffy for wings (wings!), but, while standing at the pool table, he reaches out to feel the wound at her side:

 

John 20:24-27

 

But Thomas, one of the twelve called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came.  The other disciples therefore said unto him, “We have seen The Lord.”  But he said unto them, “Except I shall see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and thrust my hand into his side, I will not believe.”  And after eight days again his disciples were within, and Thomas with them.  Then came Jesus and stood in their midst, and said, “Peace be unto you.”  Then sayeth he to Thomas, “Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands.  And reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side, and be not faithless, but believing.”

 

And in the alley outside The Bronze, Spike will kneel before her, the doubter on his knees.  And in that alley, despite the nasty sound of it, his plea for contact with Buffy is also a plea for his own redemption.  And one day, when he first sees The Slayer after her death, he will touch her bloody hands, and believe again.

 

Oh, Spike.  I am totally undone by this character in this episode.  Toward the end of it, Spike picks up a double-barreled shotgun and points it directly at the camera.  It’s superfluous really – by the time we get to this scene, he has already laid us all out flat, hasn’t he?  Not that he’s through with us, or with Buffy. 

 

Here he comes again.  Here comes death, come to find Buffy in her own backyard.  But Buffy is utterly unafraid of Spike.  His encounter with Buffy echoes his long ago encounter with Drusilla:

 

BUFFY:  What do you want now?” (WILLIAM:  “You’ll not be getting my purse, I tell you.”)

SPIKE:  What’s wrong?”  (DRU:  “What possible catastrophe came crashing down from heaven, and brought this dashing stranger to his knees?”)

BUFFY:  I don’t want to talk about it.”  (WILLIAM:  “Nothing.  I wish to be alone.”)

SPIKE:  Is there something I can do?”  (DRU:  “Do you want it?”)

 

Spike approaches Buffy, gun in hand.  Perhaps she should be afraid, but she isn’t.  The look on her face, as he surprises her with his compassion, is one of confusion, not fear.  He has seen her pain; she is hurting and vulnerable and he is offering her what she needs.  She is open to finding out what comes next.  And here is a ray of hope:  Spike breaks with the past that has so recently come crashing into his present.  Unlike Dru, he doesn’t bring death to the tearful, vulnerable person before him.  He doesn’t feed on her.  He – awkwardly – pats her on the back.  He shows her his true face, and she is unafraid.

 

And so then they sit, side-by-side, these two Lords of Creation – one who has saved the world a half-dozen times, and the other who has pillaged continents and killed two Slayers.  But in the still California night they are completely subdued; they are Legends suddenly become children, two tiny specks in a wide, wide Universe.  Time and space stretch endlessly before them like sea water to the Ancient Mariner:  “Water, water everywhere, nor any a drop to drink.”

 

Some things are totally inaccessible to their machinations.  The World-Saver cannot save her mother, and The Slayer Killer cannot kill The Slayer.  It is absurd that they should have come here, to this moment - yet it is so exactly right that neither moves a muscle to leave.  And they sigh together, both feeling the impossibility and inevitability of what has passed, where they now sit, and what’s to come. 

 

Spicy extras for James Marsters fans

 

  • James is so wonderful in this episode, I’d have to list every moment he’s on screen to do it justice.  But I’ll stick to my favorite, tiny moment:  He’s absolutely brilliant in the scene with Buffy, when he leans in for a kiss.  When Buffy initially rejects him (“What the hell are you doing?”), for a split-second, the Spike mask slips off and William appears.  Then he’s right back to being Spike again.
  • Buffy tells Spike, “You’re beneath me.”  These are Cecily’s very words, and I’ve heard various theories on this, so I’m weighing in:  I don’t believe Buffy is deliberately repeating Cecily’s words.  She feels the same way, and the same words tumble out.  To me, no matter how I look at it, I can’t believe that a story that starts out, “What can I tell you baby, I’ve always been bad,” could possibly include the telling of the true tale of William’s humiliation.  Spike is lying to Buffy, and what fits – to me – is that Spike has told her a much (much, much) altered story. 
  • Oh, Spike is so beautiful in that subway car.
  • What is most amazing about James’ performance in this episode is that Spike is at his most sympathetic, and most scary, all at the same time – and yet, it is all perfectly consistent and believable.  When Spike says to Buffy, in that alley:  “Oh – did I scare ya?”  I hear myself answering:  “Yes!”  And he has.  He has scared me with his absolute heartlessness, his total lack of conscience, and his vile, horrid treatment of The Slayers he slaughters before our eyes.  But the poignancy of his scene with Cecily (“I’m a good man”) and the evidence of the William that remains at the end of the episode, break my heart.
  • Harmony.  I love Harmony in this episode.  She looks lovely in black, and she is right about everything she says to Spike.  She cares about Spike, and she tries to talk sense to him.  Like Dru – she sees somebody when she looks at Spike.  “You are so sensitive!” she says to him.  Who else sees this?  Who else knows that underneath the cold and cruel Spike, is a Blondie Bear, a Platinum Baby, a Little Lamb?  But Spike is not William, and he’s no longer interested in William being seen (quite the contrary).
  • In the alley, Dru tells Spike that she sees “burning baby fishes all around” his head.  This makes me think of two things:  Willow and her string of fishes back in Season 2 (Angel has broken into her room and killed her fish), and Dawn and the fish mobile she has in her room.  There are parallels drawn between Dawn and Spike in this episode – maybe it is simply about that.  Other than that, I got nothin’.
  • Spike says this about the night he killed his first Slayer:  “It was the best night of my life.”  We are going to hear these words again, the night he first truly gives and receives love – mature, selfless, adult love – to and from a Slayer, in Season 7.